depression is a gurls best friend.....

i am losing so many ppl in my life, i cant even blink and they are gone, never to retun, the only family i have now is my brother kevin, my sister rachel, and my boyfriend lance, ... i had 2 best friends.... they disowned me............ i had a brother........... he abandond me........... i was in love so many times its not even funny ....... my heart has been broken,,..... its been messed with... and distroyed........... but now that i am losinng a person who i thought i would never lose.. after all this time........... after all him and i have been through......... he ends up being with someone he isnt supposed to be with....... i knew from the moment i saw him..... that forever..... was me and him.......... but now forever for us is gone.. hes with her........... and im with lance............. i love lance......... id die for him in a heart beat............. id give him the world if he wanted it........... but i lost my brother and best friend chris........... and now depression is my best friend.